Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Reflections...
Notice the new song? haha. Realised that song has been on this blog ever since the first time i created this blog way back in Jan! How time flies huh? We're now 7months, going into our 8months as a couple! Looking back at the past 1month, i must say im really upset with myself and have every reason to.
It was over the past 1 month where i discovered i was not being a very nice bf. =( Although i was always complaining about you not being sweet or loving enough for me, i failed to realise i was also not being very nice to you... Instead of giving you unconditional love like how u gave me, i somhow allow my resentment to built although it wasnt really your fault. Snoopy was getting upset over very minor issues and as a result cause poor woodstock to be upset too. Rmb that little note you wrote at the back of P's love story? The one where u signed off as 'your dumbass girlfriend who made you upset'. I would be kinda guilty now everytime i read it. And its all because it was actually your dumbass bf who's the one making you upset and not the other way. Feels so very bad i've been blinded and have accused you of not being loving enough to me. =(
I also realised in the past 1 month that i need to take time to look at myself before even opening my mouth to express my unhappiness. Without a doubt, u've been taking in my bullshit without even telling me how unreasonable i've been. Thats how bad i think i've been. Most notably on our 7th month whr i made you so upset. =(( Any other woodstocks would have left me long ago.
I promise to become a better boyfriend to my dearest peiwen from 7month onwards and im keeping my word still! Do let me know if theres any way where i can be better and promise me you must wake me up from my ideas if you ever felt im becoming unreasonable like over the past month ok honey?
U've been so nice to me yet im taking it for granted. I love you baby. Instead i should learn from you on how to give unconditional love. Especially to someone so special to me like you! I want to continue being your angel and i hope that naughty angel from 7month dont repeat his mistake again so as to hurt my girl once more. Time is too precious for me to start my nonsense and i think i should stop whining and start looking at how lucky am i to still have you after all the mistakes i've commited. Thanks for giving me chance after chance dear. Really appreciate it.
YOU'RE THE BEST GF I CAN EVER FIND! =D
`iRained
signing off at 5:56 AM
