Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Simple things that make a day great!
Last week, i was about to make my way home from Hougang after my driving lesson when i mae my way to Watsons. I hear honeybun's frequent cries of cramps on her tummy during her menstrual cycle and thought it'd be good to get her some tonics. Inside, i was as lost as i'd be in a lingerie shop! =x Finally, i plucked up my courage to approach a sales assistant for help. Thankfully, she didnt seem embarrased by my queries over 'pills for my gf who had menstrual cramps'. She intro me a few kinds of calcium pills and that was when i decided to get onea for my mom. I searched high and low for iron pills intended for honeybuns but to no avail. Alas, i settled for the calcium pills. Hope it strengthens ur bones honey. =)
While paying for my pills, the cashier was impressed with my intentions on getting supplements for my mom that she grinned at me before saying kinda loudly i was such a filal son!That was knda embarrasing but proud to hear as there's quite a number of shoppers inside! I paid my pills before scampering out of the shop before earning any extra stares off the other shoppers. That incident at Watsons was enough to light up my day. =)
P.S.Happy mothers day! To ALL moms out there!
`iRained
signing off at 9:39 AM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Untitled
I almost forgot what was my password and username when i tried logging in today after dear dear reminded me how long i hafnt been blogging! Yup! thats how looooong i didnt blog! Check out the date of my last entry and u'll know what i mean. =)
Anw, i must admit i hafnt been blogging for such a long time cause i was feeling quite lazy and the fact that i dont spend much time at home make me all the more harder to BLOG (as dear dear likes to put it) =)
Talking about blogging, there's another medium of recording our dates which is known as the Love Journal! Sadly, Snoopy hasnt been a very good boy (or dog?) for he havent been writing it since our last movie date =(
I hope woodstock forgive snoopy... Piglet: mummy mummy! dont angry at snoopy daddy ok? haha
Looking at the date, i just enlisted a year ago and last year, im one week into my 2week confinement! Boy was it long! And now, one year just flew by.. Just like that. And 2days later, will be Dear dear's 20th Bdae!!! Luckily, i managed to apply for OFF and so will be able to celebrate it with her! =D
By then, she would have finished her exam which means dear dear can relax le! 4months of hols after all the effort she had put in. =D Throughout this term, i can see honey low studying so hard, spending most of her time (or my book out time?) studying and revising her work. haha. which is good! Thought u musnt forget to take care of yourself k? Like not drinking enough water or not resting /sleeping enough! Especially sleeping! Always scared not enough time to study end up sleeping late the next day more tired right?
Another improvement hunny made was to keep her grouchiness in check! =) Last semester, she'd get grouchy easily over her work which made Snoopy very sad. =( But this semester, hunny rarely grew grouchy! Though she did on some occasion, im still glad hunny made the effort to reduce her grouchiness! =) Yay! 5 Kisses for you! MUACKS! Redeem the next time you see me. While stock lasts! (Just joking) hahaha!
As on my part, im not too sure if i've made any improvement so if i turn suckier dear dear musnt b afraid to tell me about it k? In a nice way of course =) Snoopy promise to BLOG every now and then so if i hafnt been updating it let me know k!
Loving you... As it was a year ago... MUACKS!
`iRained
signing off at 7:20 AM
Monday, November 17, 2008
Wishlist for 2009 and beyond!
2008 is coming to an end! And 2009 is just round the corner! And few days ago, when woody brought me to this seminar called 'Courage To Create', i thought to myself 'hmmm, i think i shld create a wishlist not only for the coming year but for my life!' Sounds good isn't it? This way, i can check time after time if i've deviated from my plans or am i on course to getting what i want! Often than not, i would often get pumped up abt this new idea i have. Sadly, this enthusiasm dies within the next week or so. Probably penning down my wishlist can keep me motivated to doing what i aim to do and not give up. =) I dedicate this post to my dearest darling-Low Pei Wen
Wishlist 2009 and beyond:
Driving License (2009)
Secure Uni spot (2010)
Being Financially Smart
Fitter Body
Forming A Band
Continue to be Pei Wen's angel
Settle down with Pei Wen =)
Open up my social network by just a little bit
Balance family with love life
Watching my mood
Since i've already compiled a list of ten, let that me try to achieve every single one.Theres actually more to come but i think i'll not try to be ambitious but focus on the more important ones first. Hopefully i'll be a better person to be around as well as a better bf to have for my dearest girl-you know who =)
`iRained
signing off at 6:31 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Im Sorry Girl. Shame on me
25th Oct. I wont forget this date for quite some time. For it turns out to be the day where i hurt someone i love so much i feel so ashame. Fact that dear had an exam tml made me feel ten times worse. The day when our baby Piglet turn 10months old, i made her cry so much its ten times more then her usual volume of tears. =( Shame on you jeremy.
It all started when i expects my gf to be sweet. Even it didnt dawn on me that my top quality i look for in a girl would be her sweetness. Until today. I certainly didnt realise i put sweetness right at the top. I should have known this as whenever dear does something that is not sweet enough, it would upset me quite alot. I was always expecting her to be sweet and would turn moody or even emo when she doesnt. I thus made the wrong assumption that she's not loving. That proved to be the stupidest mistake i ever made in my life. For one not to be sweet, it doesnt equate to not being loving. I found out the hard way. And dear gave me a hard lesson on that. Somehow, it took me 8months to figure that out.
On the fateful day of 25th Oct, i was msging dear and it suddenly turned ugly. Msges usually filled with love suddenly turn to msges filled with resentment and anger. It proved to be very hurting too. Definitely one of the worst arguments we ever got ourselves into. At that point, i must admit i was so convinced you're the one at fault. I was feeling bitter about the fact that you never did anything sweet for me. I guess you know what i mean after that heart to heart talk last nite. When i question you about it, you grew upset and it must have hurt you alot especially when i think lowly of you. Looking back, i must say my myopic view landed me in piles of shit. Fuck me.
Yesterday, i learnt a very hard lesson on being sweet and being loving. They are not the same. I didnt know that previously. I wished i did. Wished someone had told me that so i could save the heartache from my dearest dear. Being un-sweet certainly doesnt mean unloving as i found out the hard way. Loving someone doesnt neccesary mean being sweet to that person although that applies to me. My gf loves me alot, i daresay. I'll not question her undying love for me. But one thing about her is that being sweet is not in her nature. At first i had problem acknowledging that. I tried to drop subtle hints here and there to make her start being sweet to me but failed. This send alarm bells ringing in my head as being sweet is the top attribute i looked out for. (i use looked because its past tense. =) i no longer look for that now) It upset me alot knowing my gf isnt the sweet girl i was looking for. It even made me have the unhealty thought whether she was the right girl. What rubbish! It must have been a grave mistake if i were to leave my gf just because she isnt sweet! One thing for sure, her love for me is something no one can ever match-whether the person is sweet or not.
After the heart to heart talk, i realised i upset her in a very BIG way and deserverd to be fucked upside down for my treatment to her. Oblivious to me, her feelings and emotions were directly proportional to mine. I didnt know a cold msg would send her tears flowing like river nile. Understandly so, ystd's feelings hurt her like never before. It literally tore through her. Ripped her to bits making her unable to study as efficient. This makes me sick when i thought of how fucked up im as her bf. I wasnt even considering the fact that she had a major exam the next day. =(
The final straw came when i even suggested to her i was thinking whether she was the right girl. This smashed her heart to smithereens as she had already looked upon me as Mr Right. Yet, i made it out as if i dont see her as Miss Right. That was crazy i know. To not want a girl who loved me so much. Im sorry girl. Your love for me deserved so much more. I should be glad i have such a loving gf who loves me with all of her heart. Yet i lamented her for not being sweet enough. Fuck me! Wake up Jeremy! Sweetness doesnt equate Love! I should know that by now. It'll be something im not going to forget for a long long time.
Seeing her yesterday, i wanted to hug her the moment i saw her. I heard her crying through the phone and knew i had to see her. After all, it was me who started this fucking mess, i had to answer for it. I must be the luckiest bastard who didnt appreciate me having such a loving gf. Upon seeing her tears trickling down her face, i realise how much hurt and grieve i caused. I wanted to protect the girl i loved yet there i was, hurting her. Not the best of bf. Soon, she said although i was the one that brought her the most happiness, i was the one that brought her the most tears too. Upon hearing that, i was speechless. I knew i had failed as her great bf. It set me thinking how bad i've been and how much improving i need. Not long later, i could feel tears welling up inside my eyes. I knew i had no right to tear aft causing her so much hurt yet there she was wanting to wipe my tears off my face. A sense of guilt hit right through me. I couldnt take it anymore as more tears flowed. I dont deserve to cry. We talked and talked and u asked me a series of questions on sweetness. When u said its not in your nature to be sweet, it made me realise my mistake. I shouldnt be looking for qualities that my gf doesnt have. Instead i should just ignore that and focus on other qualities which she have. This made me realise sweetness isnt everything as much as i want my gf to have that. Its perfectly fine even if my gf is not sweet as i had hoped. On 25Oct, i made a promise not only to her but also to myself that im not going to be tempted by other girls who maybe sweeter then my darling cause there are bound to be many of them out there! However, it would be very hard to find another girl who love me as much as Pei Wen does. And for that, im very grateful.
Sorry dear dear, for having the thought that you were not the right one for me. Of course you're. I would be blind not to see it. I still want to spend the rest of my life with you and discover more on what love has to offer. This is a very heavy lesson i've learnt in the hardest way and i hope people out there dont follow my mistake as it would cause alot of hurt to the one you love. In my case, my special someone i loved so much got hurt so badly she have every right to kick me away. I knew i was lucky to still be her bf aft 25Oct. Tonite, i'll be thinking of her question before going to bed.
Will you still want me even if im not sweet?
Ans. Yes dear. I already knew the answer, I still want to be with you EVEN IF you're the most unsweet girl i knew. Thats because i love you. Yes i mean it. You showed me the love you had for me and now its my turn to show you more of my love for you. I wanna apologise to you again for hurting you so badly and accusing you for not being loving when you're not being sweet. I hope not to ever hurt you like this again. I'll try my very best not to ever repeat my mistake and i'll need your help to help your fucking dumbass bf not to ever have second thoughts or have doubts over your love for him. For i know now, im really lucky to have a gf like you.
I LOVE YOU DEAR!!
`iRained
signing off at 10:24 AM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Reflections...
Notice the new song? haha. Realised that song has been on this blog ever since the first time i created this blog way back in Jan! How time flies huh? We're now 7months, going into our 8months as a couple! Looking back at the past 1month, i must say im really upset with myself and have every reason to.
It was over the past 1 month where i discovered i was not being a very nice bf. =( Although i was always complaining about you not being sweet or loving enough for me, i failed to realise i was also not being very nice to you... Instead of giving you unconditional love like how u gave me, i somhow allow my resentment to built although it wasnt really your fault. Snoopy was getting upset over very minor issues and as a result cause poor woodstock to be upset too. Rmb that little note you wrote at the back of P's love story? The one where u signed off as 'your dumbass girlfriend who made you upset'. I would be kinda guilty now everytime i read it. And its all because it was actually your dumbass bf who's the one making you upset and not the other way. Feels so very bad i've been blinded and have accused you of not being loving enough to me. =(
I also realised in the past 1 month that i need to take time to look at myself before even opening my mouth to express my unhappiness. Without a doubt, u've been taking in my bullshit without even telling me how unreasonable i've been. Thats how bad i think i've been. Most notably on our 7th month whr i made you so upset. =(( Any other woodstocks would have left me long ago.
I promise to become a better boyfriend to my dearest peiwen from 7month onwards and im keeping my word still! Do let me know if theres any way where i can be better and promise me you must wake me up from my ideas if you ever felt im becoming unreasonable like over the past month ok honey?
U've been so nice to me yet im taking it for granted. I love you baby. Instead i should learn from you on how to give unconditional love. Especially to someone so special to me like you! I want to continue being your angel and i hope that naughty angel from 7month dont repeat his mistake again so as to hurt my girl once more. Time is too precious for me to start my nonsense and i think i should stop whining and start looking at how lucky am i to still have you after all the mistakes i've commited. Thanks for giving me chance after chance dear. Really appreciate it.
YOU'RE THE BEST GF I CAN EVER FIND! =D
`iRained
signing off at 5:56 AM
Friday, August 29, 2008
J's Love Story P.S.Simple or sweet? Up to you to decide!
Dear diary, here's a story i want to tell you about.
Long time ago in a land far away, there was this boy called J. Since young, he had been in search for someone or something which could make him truely happy. At first, he started out with a soccer ball. Everynight, he would hug and sleep with the ball. In the day, he would kick it against the wall. Seeing the ball bounce off the wall and back to him would bring hours of fun and sheer delight. Once he lost his ball and grew upset. He searched day after day till he finally found it under a flower pot. He thought he was truely happy.
Soon, years grew by and more friends joined him kicking the ball against the wall. All of them always had a great time doing so and it did not seem boring to them. One day, J was kicking the ball when he saw a girl called Y walked past. As if someone casted a spell on him, he quickly lose interest in the ball. Those years of joy and fun he had was gone. Now, J found his real happiness. At least that was what he thought.
Everynight, he would hug her in his heart and goes to sleep. Days and months flew past. He did nothing. He didnt know what to do until one day, another boy came along and took J's happiness away from him. Just like that, the simple yet strong sense of happiness was gone.
Unlike how unhappy he felt when he lost his ball, J felt terrible! It was ten times worse! Everynight, he would hug himself and sleep on a wet pillow. Days after days went by, months after months flew by. Before long, the pain in J's heart was no longer there. He felt happy playing the ball again. And so he thought, was his true happiness.
One day, a girl called P walked past. He continued kicking. The next day, P walked past again. He continued kicking again. The day after P walked past. Still, J continued kicking. It continued for several months till one day, when P walked past, J stopped for once to look. Somehow, the feeling J got when he looked at P was something like how he felt when he first saw Y. For the 2nd time, J stopped playing his ball. Instead, he would wait by the corridor every morning at 7am waiting for her to walk by giving her his sweetest smile. To P, J was just another friendly guy. But to J, P wasnt just another friendly girl. She's THE one.
Seeing how another guy took Y away from him earlier on in his life, J was determined not to let another guy do it to him again. He is going to make her his. Without any experience, J approached P and asked if she was free for a movie date. The date came and went. J has now forgotten about his soccer ball but shifted his whole attention to P. Days went by and yet, P did not say anything. Innocently, he didnt realise he was suppose to wait patiently for P to accept him. He grew impatient and began bugging P for an answer. This irritated P quite abit. And so, J learnt his lesson on being patient and started planning more outings and dates with P. This goes on for quite long until one special day. It was V day. The day where J never knew how to celebrate. That day, J made special preparations and wanted P to feel special too! It was the first time J and P celebrated V day together.
That night on the beach, J was sitting with P when both of them suddenly inched forward. Before they knew it, their lips locked. At that moment, both of them felt shockwaves through them. It was the first time both of them felt like this. It was also at this point that J realised P filled up the empty half in him that the soccer ball had been filling all along. Now, J was prepared to toss the ball away to make way for P. He was v.sure P was the one that could bring him true happiness. He too wanted P to share his happiness.
From then on, J realised P was the only one that could make him smile even with a simple message and make him soar to the dizzying heights of happiness by just a simple I LOVE YOU.
P.S. Guess who's the J and P? Leave it up to you! Come find me when you've the answer! =p
P.P.S. We were on the phone when i was typing this. Im sorry to say i've been a disappointment to the both of us dear. Its like im really testing the limit of our relationship by always doing stupid things. Yet somehow or rather, you're the one that kept our relationship alive by always forgiving me and telling me it's alright when things are not. Im really ashamed to even say im being loving towards you. Perhaps it is me who should be giving more rather than you. I seem to forget this thing i've written down somewhere in my notebook which goes like 'Always treat your special someone the way you use to treat her when you're chasing her.' Im sorry i fail to live by that dear. Am going to pull up my socks to be your better bf if i'm given another chance. Sorry woody, snoopy needs lots of consultations on how to maintain relationships... =(
`iRained
signing off at 7:53 AM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
In Da Club
Last friday was my first time i went serious clubbing. My first time was after prom and i wasnt tipsy at all. This time round, i had a drop too much and even had trouble thinking and walking striaight! Before i drank, wasnt really in the mood to dance or move around, i guess it's just cause it wasnt my cup of tea. Amazingly, after few cups of vodka+coke, everything changed. D bought a glass of vodka and it cost $82! I first tasted it alone and my face felt v.hot. After a few cups, i couldnt really feel my hands and legs. Everything seems in a swirl. We head back into MOS and began to get into the flow of things. Im very sure i wouldnt have done that when im sober! That was D's idea of fun. We danced around till 2.30 before i realised it was quite late. Each of us then cabbed home leaving Jake and Jerrel behind with their girls. haha. The next morning, i had some headache and it was my first time feeling like that.
Looking back, the whole clubing experience wasnt what i thought clubbing was like. I had underestimated the power of alcohol. Being sober and tipsy made such a difference. Heard the guys saying you wont have fun if u don't drink and 'get high'. Anyway, clubbing's damn expensive as admission fee and 2 drinks alone cost $25! Pretty sure i wont intiate any outings to club! haha.
Although it was quite fun clubbing with the guys when im tipsy, i doubt i wanna go back. Getting baby worried wasnt good and i was afraid the next time the influence of alcohol would be too strong i don't even know what im doing. Girls there looked hot i must say and some would throw themselves at guys readily. Might not be sober enough the next time round to know i have a great gf at home worrying whether i would hit on other girls and whether im drunk. Worse still, might not be in the right frame of mind to still know im attached and end up hooking up with other girls instead. =X So don't worry girl, as i will not take the chance to test the power of alcohol and end up doing something which will upset you.
Likewise, i hope woodstock don't go clubbing often if she ever likes the experience as it's not a really safe place to go. Drunken guys whether intentional or not would grope here and there and i wouldnt want woodstock to be taken advantage of. Also, afraid you would have taken too much alcohol and not know what you're doing. I don't know if im too sensitive over this but let me know if you feel im restricting your lifestyle?
P.S. 6months is nearly here and im feeling even more certain i've found the right girl. She's the only one who cares so much for me. Always making sure im not indulging in unhealthy habits like sleeping v.late, not having breakfast, the list goes on.. She also makes sure im happy! She's the one that believes in me even when i wasnt really sure abt myself. She's also the one who don't mind going through obstacles and solving our problems with me! She's also the one that im sure, the only only one that can take my nonsense when im acting dog even when im at fault! Here i have with me, the girl whom i want to give my many 'firsts' (*winks!) to and i will make sure i save all of it just for you. =) Really curious to look into the future and see if the girl im giving all of my love out to, is the same one im giving it to now. And for the record, for those of you who don't know who she is, her name's Low Pei Wen.=) Yup, im that lucky guy and you guys out there can just forget about having her for i will not give up on such a girl like her! bleah! =)
LOVE YOU BABY! MUACKS!
`iRained
signing off at 11:38 PM
